RIDICULOUS!!!! I started this the DAY AFTER CHRISTMAS and I’m just now getting it up… As for the song: it feels like everything is going by so fast and going crazy, just like the song. But it is a good song, Flight of the Bumblebee is amazing. I’ve heard it performed on piano and it was incredible. I wish I could have seen the player’s hands, he had to be moving like crazy!

I really am at a crossroads and place of transition in my life. I’m growing up; planning a wedding, finishing undergrad, starting grad school, moving away from home. But at the same time, I’m the same silly kid.  I’m singing along to the Spongebob Squarepants theme song, watching hours of back to back cartoons, arguing with my brother about who has to take the dog out, playing mindless videogames…I’m still the same silly kid.

But at the same time, I’m about to become someone’s wife, and I couldn’t be more excited. That is, if I weren’t so stressed out already. So many things have come up that I’d never considered before. Will we raise the kids to be Protestant or Catholic? How will we work the finances? Where will we spend holidays? What kind of pets will we have?  GAHHH!!!!  

I got a grill pan from my niece. A GRILL PAN!!!!!! My jaw dropped when I saw it. A large cast iron grill pan. You’re probably wondering what the big deal is. CAST IRON. Cast iron is the mother of all cooking materials (it also makes a good heavy “whack the shiat out of the bad guys” pan).  If nothing else, my list of “wants” has matured. I don’t ask for music or clothes or gadgets. I want kitchen supplies, socks, exercise equipment and things for school.  Neither Tag nor myself really got into presents this year. I mean, he got me a perfume set (which I totally love), and I got him slippers (his feet are always cold) and stuck in a cutesy wifey-style card in it.

Wedding details and preparations are probably going to take over my writing for a while. Deal with it. The other day with my mom and little cousins, we went around looking for wedding venues. I know I’m getting married in Maryland. Barring any major disasters, we’re getting married in Maryland.

The end of last year. Ah…the madness and chaos. “Before this year ends, a lot of things will have to change. I’m gonna write a list. And NOT ONE SINGLE PERSON IS GOING TO SEE IT. And on that list is gonna be everything I want to change about myself, my world, and my life. At the end of next year, I really will come back and let you know what was on the list; I’ll let you see how I was able to fare on getting things done.” That’s what I said last year. And now I’m gonna make good on it and tell you what was what.

1) Put my life in order   DONE? YES

That means decide what’s really important and make sure you follow the order. God comes first. Know what that meant? Shutting off the television so I could pray with my full attention. Turning down a night with Tag because I had some serious reflecting to do. It meant putting what comes first in my life, first, and never forgetting it. Family. Health. Friends. School. Job.

2) Listen to myself   DONE? YES

That seems to be a recurring theme that I’ve talked about more than enough. I’ve gotten to it, I’ve become used to it. Listening to self= good. Ignoring self= bad.

3) Find new friends  DONE? STILL WORKING ON IT

Oh baby that was a biggie. I’m looking back now and going “we did that for fun?” I’ve found friends that are, well…more “me” and less “we”.  I don’t want it just to be “oh…yeah. I’m with XYZ”

4) Get a hobby   DONE? YES!

Having something to focus on was great. I started knitting again. I still haven’t finished block 2 of the 48 block blanket, but I’ve made more than my share of scarves!

5) Lighten up  DONE? YES

6) Quit demanding so much of myself  DONE? NOOOOOO Not even close!

7) Lose 15 pounds DONE? NOOO

8) Figure out what you want to do with your life DONE? SORTA

See, the thing about this on was that I just wanted an idea as to what I wanted to do. I hae an idea now: I want to get a degree in public admin, work for the federal government (ideally the FBI) and travel the world. A few kids along the way would be nice, too. Lol

9)  Do what I want to do DONE? YES

By that, I mean what I said “do what I want to do”. Wanna go to the gym? Then I’d go to the gym. Wanna head to the bar and get tanked? I’m gonna do it. I stopped caring so much about what other people would think. Not to the point of stupidity, but just a bit more relaxed

10) That’s all you get to see. Hehehe I’ll give you another heads up next year. But the list will be much shorter and much more “focused”. There’s actually more to this list, I just don’t feel like putting it up.

I went out with a friend the other night and that was a blast, too. We talked about all kinds of stuff. And of course she wanted to see my ring, and I got to see hers, too. She’s not engaged, but she’s about to finish up at the military academy. They had their ring dance not long ago. Then we talked about boys (duh!) and friends and life and it was just so much fun. I don’t get to hang out with her nearly enough, but when I do, it’s like we’ve picked up exactly where we left off.

New Year’s Eve was great. I drove back to Morgantown so I could hang out with my love. The weather driving up wasn’t too bad. It was snowing, but the roads didn’t get bad until the instant I crossed into West Virginia. I was heading into a rest stop and started fishtailing like crazy. Luckily I didn’t crash or spin out. The guy who passed a few seconds before me: not so lucky. He spun out into the median. But anyways: we had a blast. Hung out for a while at his place then we headed out and ran into just about everybody we know. He was so funny. We ran into his cousin and the first thing he does is grab my hand and say “see?” My friends kept offering to buy us congratulatory drinks, but we only had a few. (3 coronas and a jagerbomb later I was ready for some sleep) But we didn’t sleep. Instead we roamed around the streets looking for someplace to get food. Of course, everywhere was closed, so we ended up going to Sheetz. They have GOOD FRIES!!!

That’s pretty much it. I don’t really have anything else to say. I think I’ve said quite enough. As for new year’s resolutions: eh, why the heck not?

1) Enjoy the planning process and not turn into a bridezilla (hahaha)

2) Stop swearing. Really

3) Lose 15 pounds before spring break (5 pounds a month…I think I can do it)

4) Find an internship

5) Stick to my resolutions!

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